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I AM
Jesselene
Born 2nd June 1990
Aged 20
Chinese-Eurasian
Christian
Currently Studying Film
Lasalle College of the Arts
Puttnam School Of Film
I ENJOY
Quiet mornings having personal space & time To think and be with My Heavenly Daddy
Spending afternoons with Friends
Soothing evenings relaxing with music and reflecting on life
Cool nights sleeping and resting in His Presence and Love.
I FAVOUR
Colors
The 7 Dwarfs
Unique Things
Musicals
Old Sch / Vintages
Black and Deep Red Roses
Coffee & Tea internationally
I LOVE
Shopping
Designing / Drawing
Laid Back Music
Photography
Sleeping
Dreaming
Writting
Thinking
Dancing
Rugby
Swimming
Chilling
I HATE
Cockroaches and Spiders
Ugly Insects
WISHLIST
A Holga Lomocam
Personal HDV cam
Iphone
The Seven Dwarfs Collection
Own set of Drums
New Acoustic Guitar
Zoom H4N
I TALK
I REMEMBER
I ESCAPE
I LISTEN
I RANT
Monday, June 23, 2008
3:56 AM
Hmmm.... so how should i start? I've got lot of things to say but know not where to start! haha. Oh wells... ok so i'll start from Saturday night!
Saturday night i had a bad dream that left me crying the whole night! The dream involved my cell group, my bro and Chris (my worship leader).
What happened was i found myself in the dream walking towards the hawker centre after church and my cell was sitting near the drink store outside in a big group. not on separate tables like usual!
And i don't know what i was saying to my bro and he suddenly told me " Your cell doesn't even like you!" and i was taken aback! So i went over to my cell mates and popped the random question."What did my bro mean when he said that? i need to know because it'll really help if you're honest with me and i could change."
And guess what! Everyone went in one round stating how i have hurt them in different ways and some still held personal grudges against me. than it came to Chris. I had no idea why he was dining with us but oh wells, he was the only one that said "lets pray for her." And no one wanted to.
I was already hurting super deeply! my heart was in pieces and it felt so heavy! I tried to get the words out of how i wanted to thank them and ask for their forgiveness personally but i closed my eyes and opened it to find myself facing darkness of my room! It was like early morning when the sky is still dark blue. I found my pillow wet with tears and i tried to stop crying and keep it down so my bro won't wake up as we sleep in the same room!
I then messaged Florence so she could pray for me! I was confused and needed to share it with someone. Confused because i couldn't rmb everything that was being said and i love my cell group so much i don't know what i'll do if one day they would turn away from me. Anyway, Flo didn't reply my message so i took the step of sending a mass sms to all my cell mates asking the same question i asked in the dream and told them why i asked. relating a quick summary of the dream. Trying to get the strength and courage to face what I'll be receiving from them. The unexpected happened! Instead of harsh words, I received words of love and assurance and also encouragement and prayers. So indeed that was just a night mare! This time as i received the replies, i was not crying out of hurt and condemnation but out of joy and overwhelming sensation of love.
One sms gave me something to think about! Shan yu told me that maybe God was teaching me something and probably want me to learn something so yea i agree on that. I really need to watch my behavior and the words i use when i speak! And A reason for that because i would hate myself for ever hurting my love ones and for that not to happen i had to learn and watch myself. So yup!
So the Lesson learned was everything happens for a purpose cause God planned it to happen and he is never at fault. Its always for our own good. Ytd while i was talking to Ben Au, I told him the same thing about why we meet problems and i'm glad to testify that the phrase "Nothing happens without a purpose" has truth in it. =) So yes! I love you Jesus and i always will! alright! its dinner time.... i'll update the rest another day! toodaloo....=)
Signing off,
Jesselene
my memories ;
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
12:53 AM
So today is a day of boredom and that's why i decided to go back to blogging again! Its been so damn long since i last blogged that i even forgot my link and password! How silly is that yeah?
Ever since i had my op two months back I've been like super duper restless. My first op was for my wrist for it had some growth in it that had to be taken out for it cause pain and i couldn't bend my wrist backward! so yup that too like three weeks to heal than i had an op on my left foot due to some bone structure gone wrong between my big toe and second toe.
There is a diff between both feet!
This was before the Surgery.
Don't ask me what they did to it for I'm not really sure but vaguely i know they broke the bone, did some shaving and correcting. Yup! i had a couple of days stay at the hospital which was very horrible! Using the clutches was terribly tiring so i had to learn to walk fast and when i tried taking baby steps i fell a couple of times which made things worse. so much for wanting to get better! anyway now its quite alright! is been nearly a month since my op and well i can walk using weird special shoes! which sucks too! haha. wanna see the scar for my foot?
This was after I took out the stitches!
pretty neat eh??? 5 stiches!
Super pain can?
And this is up close! I know you'll probably say its gross!
But oh wells!
but bad news my leg got affected with blisters and pus Last week!! And that sucks! so that's why i'm stuck at home! Even my birthday was celebrated at home! can you Imagine??!!! But that i'll save it write abt another day! oh wells... gotta go do some stuff now...will blog again later! thoughts....
Jesselene!
my memories ;
And this is up close! I know you'll probably say its gross!
