I did the gold in universe thing again! i'm not saying i believe it but yeah it explains the thought i have now! partially! sigh! stressed and upset! I don't know why!Scared and confused! argh! Lord i need you!
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.
Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.
You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.
Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
my memories ;
4:51 AM
my memories ;
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
12:46 PM
AUDREY KITCHING!!!!
first saw this name on lyy's shirts and then on her ipod and i went like WOW she's hawt stuff babey! and her hair! yummy!
SHE HAS THE YUMMIEST HAIR!!!!
ME WANT!!!!!
i drew my influence from ppl alike.
Attracted to her hair!!!!! Yummy baby!
-Jesse-
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
8:58 PM
I know i should be bloggin but i lack of time as the work of life deprives me so! But since one of my own studies in school is about emoism as given to me by my lecturer, i wrote a emo poem of my own recently that describes partially how i was feeling when i was researching, studying and observing the whole entire trend turn into one of sub culture's isms! So yes i could say influence it has indeed dawned on me but heys i shall shush now and will definately update about life SOON i promise. In april! =) Lots to say! stay in tune for later posts! =) Loving you all still!
My thoughts for this day 21/01/09
Feelings driven with emotions Is that so wrong of me? To have such desire and longing A deep need to break free
Sometimes even the purest thing Could hurt one's heart real badly Things that life offers meaning Proves to be one that's decieving
So what's good and what's bad? At times they look the same to me Making a choice can drive me mad Why do i have to be so attached emotionally?
The world is hard and people don't care. Do something that's weird and they all stare No one can hear the cry of this heart Screaming and screaming, Pumping blood
No bleeding, don't worry, bruised it is only Soon you'll see those small wet droplets Tears its called as it slides down slowly This is a song i write in this booklet.
-Jesselene~
~Is this what ppl call emo? I just wrote my thoughts. So shoot me baby is you wanna, or walk away from me forever. I don't care anymore One or the other.