I RANT
Monday, July 20, 2009
7:02 AM
Here's a testimony that i have been waiting to have it shouted
out to the world to let the whole world know, let the whole world know.....
( sorry the song joy is the flag is in ma' head man! whoops ok and back to writing!)
As most of you know i have been working in in a shopping center under the sports department selling extremely overpriced bikinis which are designed and imported. yup! Sounds really good eh but not only that i was not really paid much. However that aside, i loved the fact that i was given the chance to interact with people and serve them. Really.... i love serving people even if they were most irritating cause that increases my level of patience. yup! No kidding.
As much as i dislike certain factors, i went ahead and stick to the job knowing i got accepted by God's grace and he had a purpose for me being there.
As time passed, somehow i begin to develop more dislikes than likes regarding my job as an retail assistant. It wasn't the customers or the colleagues i worked with although they did get on my nerves sometimes. Recently it was the boss. Yes now this is not gossip but i need you to understand why i hate it and how it turned out for good in the end.
I thought my boss as a really nice person although my colleagues did speak ill of her sometimes. In my heart i was thinking that they exaggerated and she couldn't be that bad. Almost all of them were afraid of her and it as a wonder to me why until recently when i was sent to the office to work with her in packing and preparing for the opening of Orchard ION because we were opening another shop there.
She was a total nightmare. She was the kind which even a NICE person like Gandhi or Mother Theresa would want to shove her head in the toilet bowl and flush it than bang it against the wall till her skull cracks like a the shell of the egg which we eat half boiled every morning. Yum! I'm kidding. Like ewww! ( i'm exaggerating but you get what i mean. )
I won't really say much about what she did but just know by what i described, she is that bad! I admire those who stuck with her so long. But as they say it was for the money and all they could do is gossip about it among themselves at lunch time. Which ain't that good.
Anywayyyy.... i tried my best to keep thinking what would Jesus do and smiled when the rest talked bad about her during lunch but it got to the point i had to let it out so i kinda blare and rant it all out on the phone during lunch to my dearest classmate Lyana who i am so grateful to for being sucha darling and letting my RAH it all out. Great friend babe! Love you!
Anyway i kept repeating
- "I hated my job and i wish i could get out of here if i could only find another job!"
- "Like what am i still doing here?"
- "Why species like hers was even born! Contaminating our world really. No wonder Earth needed saving."
- and yes alot of " OMG! ARGH! THAT ^&*^#$%& (&^*(&#&* BITCH !!!!!"
Now now, i know you guys would go "JESSE!!! Watch your language!" But i was that fed up and the bottle in me was shaken too hard that it just popped open like a champagne bottle.
That all happened on Thursday. She still wanted me to work the next day although she scheduled it as a day off when she did the schedule for everyone. I wanted to say ok as i pitied my colleagues and really wanted to help them so that i could share the load of stuff my boss was issuing to them and prevent further cursing and sarcasm. Boy she really needs a taste of her own medicine really.
BUT after that day i really needed and break so i decided to reject her request and said i couldn't shift my appointment just for her. I did apologize to my colleagues and told them that if they really needed help i can secretly come down when she was not there cause i don't want her to hold me back. She is doesn't pay me OT when she often holds me back Overtime. Probably accumulated like at least a day of OT! I do have a home to return to you know. So yup!
I called my bunch of school friends which i am grateful to God for even though i only knew them for 1 year! Awesome people. you guys make me happy! Yeah i planned to meet them for lunch and hang out after sending mum for BRT treatment. HAd an awesome time catching up by the way.
OKAY HERE'S THE AWESOME PART!
FRIDAY MORNING, 9AM @ AH MEI'S CAFE NOVENA HAVING BREAKFIES WITH MOMMY.
(Convo not to its exact words but the main points the same)
*phone rings
Jesselene: Hello?
Ms Hafizah: Jesse you busy?
Jesse: Nah what's up!
Ms Hafizah: when's your sch hols over?
Jesse: August! Why?
Ms Hafizah: You interested in coming back to school to help the students with art?
Jesse: (thinking.... not sure. got work leh! want to but no time! Sigh. sadness! )
YEAH. I don't mind.
( WAIT! WHAT DID I JUST SAY? CRAP!!!! oh no how???? mouth too loose! Darn!!! )
Ms Hafizah: ok can you come down tmr morning? I'll explain to you everything than. I'll probably talk to the principle about you being a temp/relieve teacher part time. is that ok?
Jesse: (OMG did she just say temp staff meaning i'm getting paid?) Did you just say relieve teacher?
Ms Hafizah: Yup! Gotta talk to the P first about your pay.!
Jesse: ok sure see ya in the morning! THANK YOU MRS ANWAR!!!!!! ( She's married now! hehe )
Convo ended! i scream in with my mouth open but with silence. This must have been a dream.
1stly, its chai chee. Didn't i say when i graduated I'm never stepping foot in the grounds of chai chee ever again?
2ndly, This must be God! really! And whats even awesome is that i didn't even pray, It was an awfully horrid feeling. as the day before cause i cursed and swear and that is absolutely sinful. A great Pang hit me. I felt darn guilty but it was a lesson learnt. WHY?
LESSON BECAUSE, firstly, God saw my heart. He knew me best, He heard the cries of my heart, felt and saw the hurt i went through with a smile, heard the curses she screamed at me when i didn't do it right innocently.
He knew exactly what i was thinking and although in my heart i longed and seeked for something better, i never spoke or asked him. But He still opened the door and embraced me in! And HE also FORGAVE ME. for the words i used. For the curses i screamed out. For the images and film i created in my mind. For the evil thoughts i gave in to while thinking. And HE LOVED ME EVEN WHEN I FELL AND STRAYED TO THE WORLD!!! How AWESOME is He.
I don't believe in fate, I don't believe that things just happen. I believe in Destiny, Purpose and Life. I am a believer of what i see, hear and feel vertically and horizontally.
So yup! Praise God.
My vow now to be a blessings to the students i meet. I know i am a carrier of love. Made unique and given the gift. Yes i know i am called. Maybe not to the nations yet.
AS the saying goes, Ministry starts from home. Although there is a literal meaning to it, I meant Singapore as Home. Its starts here and than to the nations. Now it starts from Me, My family, My friends, My school, the people i meet and the lives i have yet to encounter. God be my guide.
So that's my testimony. So far so good. My students are alright. only met a few as the rest are way too lazy but meeting them ALL tmr! bless them! For they are special is His Eyes!
Alrights! haha that's all! =) Will update on how school goes! YEEPEE!!!!!!
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