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I AM
Jesselene
Born 2nd June 1990
Aged 20
Chinese-Eurasian
Christian
Currently Studying Film
Lasalle College of the Arts
Puttnam School Of Film
I ENJOY
Quiet mornings having personal space & time To think and be with My Heavenly Daddy
Spending afternoons with Friends
Soothing evenings relaxing with music and reflecting on life
Cool nights sleeping and resting in His Presence and Love.
I FAVOUR
Colors
The 7 Dwarfs
Unique Things
Musicals
Old Sch / Vintages
Black and Deep Red Roses
Coffee & Tea internationally
I LOVE
Shopping
Designing / Drawing
Laid Back Music
Photography
Sleeping
Dreaming
Writting
Thinking
Dancing
Rugby
Swimming
Chilling
I HATE
Cockroaches and Spiders
Ugly Insects
WISHLIST
A Holga Lomocam
Personal HDV cam
Iphone
The Seven Dwarfs Collection
Own set of Drums
New Acoustic Guitar
Zoom H4N
I TALK
I REMEMBER
I ESCAPE
I LISTEN
I RANT
Sunday, January 18, 2009
10:28 PM
Yay!!!! C day is over! hahaha..... got loads of pics and stuff!!!! i'm just glad the week is passed and over! hahaha.
Tears have been shed, anger let out, rubbish pouring out in songs and emo periods of time! but it was all worth it really! Cause we managed to get it done and over with! haha. let me share what had gone through this week.
I was struggling with my presentation abt some guy called Stephane Mallarme and i kinda was so so scared for the day before and i still was not able to come up with anything to present without copying and pasting from the internet! AND THAT IS NOT RIGHT OF ME so i called my lecturer up and convinced her to give me another person to work on and guess what! SHE DID!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!! I got to do on a fashion designer called Charles Frederick Worth. Was so high that i went crazy!!!! It didn't turn out as good though cause it was a rush job! i really hope i passed!
And now for the 2D mural part.
The 1st day started pretty well with all the happy stuff going on and drawing monsters and stuff till we realized that the wall looked too cramped up and so we decided to erase the whole thing! Than we had a bunch of disagreements of what we should draw up next and it left all of us using the F***in word and all the bad tempers and all! I needed a beer to calm me down really! which helped slightly but than i ended up crying! In front of someone who erm..... i like maybe??? (that later!) Gosh embarrassment hits real hard man! And i was so so rude! man i feel bad about it all! i mean even our lecturer was unhappy with us, for a certain person in our group kinda made him angry and that sparked a whole lecturer not happy with the group thing!
I went out for dinner with Lyana after that and we kinda bitch about stuff or rather had a time of like trash out which made things so much better. We also managed to draw up an idea for the mural so the day ended pretty well after that! so yup!
When i got home i apologised to the people i think i offended and that went pretty well too! I really thank God!
THE 2ND DAY, i came earlier than anybody else and wellwell i saw Him?? ok and just so you know my day started off well and yes i was glad but thing is it is bad that he is just directly opp me ok enough info!
yes so than i moved on and started sketching my idea waiting for sam and my lecturer to arrive so we can start doing the thing an not waste time. In the end our dear lecturer approved of our idea and than we started doing it all over again with a happy heart!
We only felt bad cause we were gonna erase what my friend suggested that made every kinda unhappy and we were thinking of what would be the best way to tell her that her idea kinda sucks and we don't wanna do it and so does our lecturer!!! so yup! She woke up late! thank GOD!!! so when she came it was all gone! and we were onto our new design which was done by our dearest hafiz!!!! omg i love that boy! he is so darn good at his work!
And yup from there we went crazy with the dancing and the laughing and by the end of the day we were all just plain tired!!!!! But we didn't wanna head home just yet so we went to Billy Bombers for dinner!!!! YUMMMM!!!!!! After Billy Bom's we went to ben and jerry's for dessert and the live band was not bad! We felt tired so in the end we just went home to rest well for the next day!!!
THE 3RD DAY!!!!! I was again early!!!!!!!!And Saw Him again but it didn't matter!!!! he didn't recognize me for i was wearing an army hat, fender t-shirt, faded jeans and a one sided earing with my hair tyed to the side! i know weird!!! but ah wells but i really had nothing to wear to school alrd as i have been in school for like a week now!!!! so yup!!!! pretty hip yeah??!!!!
We had a fun day actuallly! managed to finish early and slack for abit!! Wanted to go play rock band at cine but than we were like too tired alrd! And because after c day, we had the free pizza and drinks, the guys kinda took like 9 cans of beer i thing up and i had one! Oh and we slacked at the grass patch till like 8 pm!!!! during that time, we went cazy as i had the guitar! I started singing random songs about him, my friends and people we don't really like! hha.... it was dead hilarious! i think i should write songs aboout all my friends in school and sing it at expose yaself! it would be darn funny! oh wells picture time......... me alrd blog alot!!!!
crap no time! pics later k!!!! love love!!!
Jesselene my memories ;
Monday, January 12, 2009
9:23 AM
GOD HELP ME THROUGH THIS WEEK!!!!!
YOUR STRENGTH I SEEK
YOU ARE ALL I NEED!!!!
HEAR MY CRY
LORD, I AWAIT!!!!!
-Jesselene-
my memories ;
9:07 AM
Okay i know i should be posting what i promised in the previous post but i'll have to save it for another time! here is my current status and updates!!!!- I would not be able to blog till like end of next week.
- I finally manage to get my hands on the Fairy tale scheduler I've been eying on since last year! For it has all four of my favorite fairy tale designs and story quotes in it! Snow White, Alice in Wonderland, Peter Pan and Cinderella. I kinda Sacrificed my week's allowance for it! That's how much i really want it! Would snap a pic of it soon and post online!
- This week is gonna be a hectic week for me and i'm on the verge of breakdown due to the load of work that i have and also i have many things to sacrifice such as sleeep, church service and even the up coming fuel school prayer conference at cornerstone which i really really really wish and wanna be there!
- Prayers would be appreciated really as
- i have like a presentation that has to do with some poet called Stephane Mallarme. He is french by the way and i have a very very hard time trying to understand his poems and prose compositions. It is due this thursday.
- I also have to have all my layouts by today actually as in like now is the early morning. However i have not even got a idea out yet as my lecturer rejected my previous white structure for 3D project.
- And then there is a Open house for school this week and i'm doing a mural with some other people on the campus and i've not done a single thing for the process development and friday isn't very far away.
- Also i have to do my digital imaging project and get it at least 80% done by next week! I don't know how i'm gonna get through! so yup!
- Prayers would be nice actually!
So that's about it! hope to see ya soon people! Loving ya!!!! my memories ;
Sunday, January 11, 2009
2:58 AM
Its been a long while since i last blogged! probably 10 days but not really as I've not updated much!
many things have happen recently and I've got loads to share! When the hols started, i had many catch up sessions with my friends and then came the festive season and then church camp and then back till now! What work have i done? not much! just research for my WHITE PROJECT (3d work) and my texture research and explorations. Plus random drawing of jon burgerman's cute monster like stuff! haha.... so yup! i have not really achieved the goal i set for my hols which is the completion of all my work!
If they are not cute to you i don't know what to say but i guess all this liking for this kinda stuff grew on me because of lyy! haha. She love ugly dolls and so forth and well i just started loving it at the sight of it! its not ugly. its beauty in the most creative sense! haha. what i mean is that i see it so much that i grew fond of it!
oh wells. ANYWAYS..... Last month was kinda up and down. Sad stuff and happy stuff all happened but it turn out for the better i suppose!
If i have not alrd mention it before, My beloved cell disbanded recently!
People i hold dear from church! People who are like a second family to me! Well we've been together for the last 8 years and also before that when we were in UR Kindies. We basically grew up together and was one of the only cells that had mixed gender. Another one was Joshua's cell but they disbanded way earlier than ours as they kinda all moved on to take the positions of leadership and kinda multiplied buy leading the younger cells.
Well anyway, We have gone through alot together.
With ups and downs, agreements and disagreements, hate and love, sorrow and joy, trips to Cambodia and Thailand together, tears and laughter.... literally everything.
I don't know abt how the rest felt but they were the people that if it wasn't for them and their love and support, i wouldn't not be what i am today! probably worst!
i share my sorrows, my love, my hate, my tears, my joy, my crappiness, my tantrums, my anger, my mind and my heart with them all the time. They are the people i can rely on for being honest with me! frank with me and also for there for me!
They stood by me when i was struggling with my lesbian issues.
They stood by me when i was having family issues,
They stood by me when i was having a emotional down turn,
They stood by me when my family hit a financial crisis,
They stood by me when mum got cancer till now,
They stood by me when i was totally upset about my results,
They stood by me when i was on the verge of walking away from God.
They stood by me when Godma died.
They stood by me when i thought the world hates me.
They stood by me in everything!
Till today They are there for me.
I know that it may seem impossible but i know that the bond my cell share would last me a life time! This are the people i want my future kids to meet and hang around with. HAHA. ok i'm digressing haha. But indeed they are a blessing from God that i hold dear. So yes this was indeed a very sad issue for me when i heard we 're to disband! I kinda expected it but than again i guess i didn't expect it to be so soon!
However it turned out pretty well as i'm not settling in a new cell which i kinda am hoping to be able to do the same as my previous cell but i know it would definitely take a very very long time for that to be achieved! Its just so weird moving out of my comfort zone! but the people there are funky and all! I'm the youngest though! the rest are like 21 and above! ah wells.... ain't bad being a baby of the cell! haha.
I'm just glad by ex cell is still as tight as we used to be as we still go out together, have sleepovers, go drinking together, movies and birthday surprises! We meet every week for at least once to have dinner after service! And with that i'm glad!
So yes that was part of the happenings! i'm long winded am i? but i don't wanna loose details! haha so yup!
Church camp was a transforming one as wells! Those who have facebook coud go look up the pictures! one that is the talk of the day was this!
I AM WOMAN
hear me roar
done by Keenan with courtesy of Justin providing the catch line!
Ah well i still love them both! haha.... it was a random picture that became the talk of the day! How it happened? i don't know! haha. This was taken during human treasure hunt at holland v on day 3 of camp! You know i'm so gonna post the testimony of what happened on that day man! it was A (pronounced as AEY) AMAZING!!!!!!! hahaha.... maybe on the next post? But well i even have my own testimony to share! but now i'm running out of time so i guess i'll have to post that another time. hahaha.
ok well i'm gonna post my new year resolution on another post and then followed by testimony and than after that the follow up on life again! hahahaha.... I'm gonna be 19! can you believe that! ARGH! RAHWORS i say! Alrights! I shall toodeloos now! have a great year people!
Love always,
Jesselene
my memories ;
I AM WOMAN
